梦醒后のDully Sun






















Have a bad mood when I was awake
Although outside is sunny
But I can’t see the brightness of the sun
Imagine I will stay in the darkness for my 3 weeks studies week
Everything become dull and dreary
This is not I expect and hope
But yet it will

You may question me why do I so negativeness
But the outcome will be
Because I told a lot people my planning

I know, from my deep hearth
When I say out my want
It will never be my side

Again, it was happen

睡醒之后
梦不再
希望永远远离我

只是想要出去玩
但没这美好的缘分
是我太贪心?
还是期望太高?

又再一次
可怕的诅咒又灵验了
下次还是把它藏起来
让它在心里自助旅行

前奏 * Foreword

Early morning I received a SMS which pull my attention back to my class when I was dreaming. I got an offer to have a Taiwan trip from Kuan Moo Tuan for 21 days. Finally, my wish comes true.

Actually I want to apply this when I was 17. Because I was affair I will be present in National Service. In the end, Malaysia does not select me for NS.

A year before, my father allowed my younger sister to apply and as she wish she get the offer. And after my younger sister was back from Taiwan, my elder sister was organizing her graduated trip to Taiwan with her friends. So within 3 month, my sisters were gone to the place which I had mentioned. -.-lll

一封简讯把正在钓鱼的我拉回教室
四年前要做的事情终于可以完成了
终于,我有机会被载去机场旅行了

观摩团让我有机会出走21
但我还是最后一个到台湾
虽然我是第一个说要去
但也是最后一个如果不包括我爸

一年前妹妹得到支柱参加观摩团
妹妹回来后的二月
大姐也把毕业旅行定在台湾
在三个月内我变成两人的机场司机

现在终于轮到我了
但热潮已退
因我以厌倦那一篇篇的故事
听到没感觉了
可是还是有一点兴奋
就只是一点点 V(-.-)v

HL = 园艺

Horticulture and Landscape Programe is the course that I taking right now at UMS, Sabah. HL is one of the program that under School of Sustainable Agriculture (SPL-Sekolah Pertanian Lestari).

SPL containing 3 programes:
Crop Production Programe
Livestock Production Programe and
Horticulture and Landscape

So, lately I will study in more detail about plant. Mostly are fruits, vegetables and flowers. Those are the major things I will learn in 4 years.

SPL is new in UMS and I am the second intake of second batch student. For this intake got 2 students register themselves, me and another sabahan girl.

This is the course I’m trying to apply for 2 years and finally my dream come true.

2+2+2+2=8
Hope I will be rich!!
发呀

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水果 + 蔬菜 + 花朵 = 园艺
听起来怪怪的

但这将会包含在我四年的课程里

简单来说就是读关于植物的东西

沙大
将会培养出植物
のせんせい
希望我能够顺利毕业

变成一位救世菩萨

First = 第一次

Sunrise
First time watching sunrise at the plane
So nice and beautiful
The plane was flying toward the sun
Just like I am going to the light
From the sky I can see the beautiful beach
The sea is blue and peace

Terminal One – The Mas Airline Airport
Reached 10 minutes early than the time had estimate
The terminal is very small and ugly
(烂烂の)
The lobby of the airport is at outside just after the custom
Just few step only you will walk out from the airport
Here do not have any shop outside the custom
I got a feeling like I am a traveler
I am in holiday

Sabah KK town area
A place that got a lot of car
Motorbike not much over here
The car I see lot over here is Proton
Where is the Big car??
I was bringing to round and round over the KK town
Just sit at the car and try to remember those entire places
But sorry I can’t really recognize
At Sabah the most I saw on the road is ROUNDABOUT
Damn lot you know
I think I was passing through more than 5 roundabouts
Faint~

UMS
It’s look nice and Big
But I feel the buildings are lonely
The first place I went is chancellery
It’s built at the top of the hill
The student over here called it as “Twin-Tower”
Over there hard to find parking lock
And I was feel great got people fetching me around
If do not have car sure I will die on half way
Because of the heavy luggage and the hill


Thank you sister, Kai Fei and Siu Mei
Without you all help sure I can’t take it
Then I will break the record
Be the first person to have half day trip at Sabah
Feel disappointed for their system and the lazy administrator
Sorry to said that but it’s the truth
Now I know how they run a University
Terrible, super ~

Really
If do not have any people accompany
Telling me what to do where to go
Asking the workers here will make you mad
You will be a fool climbing the hill up and down
The interaction between departments is damn bad
The workers here will tell you difference procedures
Which I can believe?

Just be a fool
Try all had they maintain
Just do double or triple work
Idiot~

I think I am brave enough but actually NO
Is time to train my patient
The first lesson~

My room
Finally settle the registration before office hour
Finally I get the key for the accommodation
Kampung-E, A2-4-11-3
Carry the heavy luggage all the way from the ground to level 4
So tired

Shopping
Siu Mei bring me to xxxxxx
Followed by Xiao Lee and Sie Sie
The friends I just met
Bought all the necessaries that I needed
Blanket, bucket, biscuit, kettle, … …
Straight one shock buys all

Feeling
Excited
Freedom
Happy

Stupid
Fool
Idiot

Disappointed
Angry
Hate

+
Did not sleep over a night
36 hours open my eyes
Finally I can sleep tightly

Good Night~


第一次离开家

第一次到沙巴

第一次下定决心

第一次离家出走

第一次自己搭飞机

第一次必须靠自己

第一次学会不要放弃

第一次开始学习独立

第一次变成英雄

第一次变成傻佬

第一次没有时间吃晚餐

第一次超过一夜没有睡

一个人Crossing the Sea

Depart – Kuala Lumpur (MH 2638): 20JUL07 04:00
Arrive – Kota Kinabalu: 06:35am

FARE : MYR359
TAX : MYR9MY/MYR69YQ
TOTAL : MYR437

Gate : B03
Boarding Time: 03:30
Seat : 22F

First time going to a place by myself without string
With the 19.8KG of luggage which just using 6 hours to pack
This will be a long journey I might go through
Just bringing few cloths, shoes, necessaries and myself
Without knowing what will happen on the next

But I was preparing for everything
Independence with no fear
I’m coming

一个人的旅程正要开始
带着轻便的行李与心情
不害怕面对独立的生活
飞到一个陌生的象牙塔

Crossing the sea
Bringing nothing
Starting the journey
Getting knowledge

+ Over the Sea + 飞越大海 +
























Yet I will pass over the sea
Catching my dream
You may jeer at me
But I’m decided to go
With the reasons
Although it is far
But no matter how
Look Forward and No Return


梦,谁没有
现在,我将要

寻找自己的未来
你可以笑我傻
但我心以决
也想了很久

这是我正在追求的
虽然有点远
但不管怎样

我必须克服

当梦醒后

梦,谁没有
它永远都是美好的
它永远美丽
它带来希望
它让人活得更有意义,更加精彩。

但,梦还是梦
它永远处在虚幻的时空
一个被误认为美好的空间

但梦醒后,
你会发现
原来现实生活中它根本不存在

梦是什么?
我不知道!
因为我已醒了
回到了现实
我将会活在黑暗中
一个看不到前方的世界
一个没有曙光的世界

又失败了

又一次
失败了
这意味着什么?

当人生失去目标时
世界变得不再美丽
渐渐地,你会发现
活在陌生的世界是非常可怕的

已不在

渐渐地发现到,
那个干劲十足的人已不在
他慢慢的在堕落
堕落的程度他自己也没能察觉

他的动力来源已消失了
地球虽然还在转动
但他已慢慢地停止一切

他发现到自己已和世界脱节
他已跟不上大家的步伐
他把自己留在后头
他已忘了如何前进

他站在原位
慢慢地往后退
他离开了人群
站在一个很远很远的地方

他的双脚陷在烂泥中
他不想在挣扎了
因为这会让他越陷越深
他不知该如何是好

他不见了?
他失踪了?
他离开了?
他消失了?

他走了,
已不在...

阅读

许多人已慢慢的遗忘阅读这有涵养的爱好了!
我自己也是一个.
现在已越来越少人喜欢阅读了,
书本已慢慢的被人们遗忘。
大家只记得那四方方的电脑。
虽然现在有很多电子书刊,
但感觉还是没有书本来的过瘾!

现在就让我们把电脑关掉,
把手提电话藏起来,
找一个舒服的地方,
加上一杯你爱喝的饮料
(nature drink, even 只是白开水)
好好地享受着被遗忘的乐趣!

不要迟疑!
快快去找本好书!
你会发现,
原来我们已很久没让自己放假了!
另一个你将会回到原点
然后重生!

Honey Moon

This is week 3 for my new sem..
But then I still dono what am I doin rite now.,
Life is still the same...
Jz the ppl that I meet is different..
Meet a lot ppl that is new for me..
Now I was lazy to hv a long talk wf any1..
Coz honey moon make ppl become lazy..
Now, went to sch is jz for class..
After the class jz hope can find some place that got a lot ppl pass by..
really enjoin watchin ppl walkin around..
See the way they walk, see the way they talk, see the way they act..
Now the opportunity for me to talk is getting lesser n lesser..
Suddenly knew that 1 of my friend stop for this sem..
Now, no1 can hv lunch wf me..
i think I hv to hv my lunch alone if I cant get any1 to company me..
hope all will be fine soon..but, that jz a hope..

历史与未来

你希望
我更渴望
因为我错过了很多很多
后悔了很久
如果时间真的能倒流
我一定不会再让历史重演
但,这是不可能的
人必须向前看
不要再重蹈覆辙
历史是不会改变
我们只能改变未来
未来因我们而存在
我们创造未来!!!

drumstick KitKat

in bad mood..
heard that eat ice-cream can make ppl feel batter...

today, after my STA class,
went to the shop to find something to eat..
coz i am hungry

bought a drumstick KitKat,
and eat it...

the drumstick KitKat really not nice lo..
some more the whole con is chocolate..
hate chocolate most..
spending so much with a not nice ice-cream..

but my mood is getting better after eating the "shit" ice-cream
I'm not the pitiest in the world..
the ice-cream is more cham than me...
eaten by the people that dono appreciate...

27/06/1988

This is my '‘actual’' date of birth..
Why do I said so..
Coz even my close friend also saying that I was born in June but not April..
Maybe I really not the age that you think..
Maybe I was born at a day that can’t be found from the calendar..

This is really giving me a great shock..
Followed by a disappointment..
I believe that she is my good friend..
that's what she always said..
She not only can’t remember but had forgotten..
Maybe I'm not the most important person in her list..
When u knew the truth, it really hurts..

Thank you..
My friend..
I will remember yours although you can’t remember mine..
You are my friend until the end of my life..
Once you are in my list you will stay forever..

I always believe that birthday is a day that you start a new journey..
And I have started and moved on..
Huu ~ ~

Again, thanks for all who had written me in your list..
Friendship Forever!!

Sound of Fighting!!

Found that I enter a small class for my Moral Education.

My class only have 35 of students, and this make me headache coz lecturer always asking question among of us. The class is damn useless and boring.

But found that he always make a cute sound when he talk about fighting!

Wao ~ ~Wao ~ ~Wao ~ ~

That is the sound when people fighting.

+ His father talk like this also.

“Wao ~ Wao ~ Wao ~” = loud!!

MPW 2153 - Tamil Cheellvan (Stephen)

刺中之林 ~ Thorn's Grove

After taking this photo, my beloved Thorn was kicked by the cat and it was broken. It was dropped to the next door and I missed the chance to ask my neighbour to keep it for me. They throw it away to the rubbish bin! Oh ~ ~ ~

Do you know, I spending a lot of time to plant and look after. Why don’t you just keep it for me or ask me before you throw. Although its look normal for you but for me not. The thorn is a life too, how can you hardhearted to end their life so badly? Most of the human being nowadays does not take care about our greenness! Please! Everyone, we have to start to plant more, stop chopping down the trees, and stop polluting!

Saddest, another Thorn also gone, why don’t the cat kick my plant to my house but to the next door?

Fate???

Now, I only leave a small Thorn with me. The one I had rite now.

+尼特的生日+

尼特,
一个总是被世界遗忘的普通人,
一个总是把自己遗忘掉的人。

昨天,
对他来说是个意义非凡的日子,
不知不觉就这样地过了、没了。

他,
得到了祝福,
许许多多的祝福,
认识的、不熟悉的、不相识的朋友都希望他快乐。

他,带着满满的祝福,
他,非常感动。

但他,
还是后悔,
后悔没能出门,
后悔没能吃到自己的生日蛋糕,
后悔没能为自己好好地庆祝,
后悔自己少了那股冲动。

听很多人说过,
一定要庆祝二十一岁生日,
因为它见证了人生另一个新的起跑点。

他,总是带着期待地心情为朋友过生日,
但,他总是忘了把那一份期待留给自己。

他,
要对自己好一点,
不想再理别人了,
也不想活在忏悔中。

他想通了,
与其希望,不如遗忘,
这样可能会好过一点点。

他想要买一台手提电脑奖赏自己,
因为尼特的知己是一台没有感情的电脑,
只有它和他一起度过这一年的生日。

后悔莫及 + 永远的痛 = 一辈子的遗憾

Happy Birthday !!

Again, celebrating my birthday with my elder sister.After i was born, we always celebrate our birthday tgth, nearly 21 years.

This year, we went to Seremban eat 烧螃蟹! We not going to the most famous restaurant for the crab, coz it is expensive and the workers are very 'lan xi', some more the food is not that delicious. We went to S2 searched for crabs, the taste not bad, but i still prefer home cooked, especially 酸甜 flavor. Eh~ i really don't like what '咸蛋烧蟹'xx烧蟹‘ , coz it will spoil the origin tasted.

Cake, this year we get a chocolate ice-cream cake, i get a birthday cake that combine with chocolate, ice-cream and sweet cake. 3 things that i not really like it in my life. Ha~ funny rite, but it is true, my closest friend knew that i don like chocolate, ice-cream and sweet cake. Hi~

Neh~, Happy Birthday to my elder sister, wish u all the best!


人的特點


最近,在一个名人的部落格看到了一个很有价值意义的留言:

“一張潔白的紙上有一點黑點,很多人都會說看到黑點,沒有太多人會說看到一張白紙。白紙面積這麽大,但人們沒有看到,反而看到一點微不足道的黑點。
你是不是也只看到那粒黑点?

Final Exam...

I hate exam since after Form 6...
everything will determine by ur result....
Result represent everything?
I don think so...
result cant really showing a person opportunity... ... ...

Finally...we get it....

Yesterday, 14.04.2007 7.49pm...
Broadband is available in my house...
We'r waiting for it for dono how many yearssss...
Finally, we get it...
Izzit the war will be started?
Dono..hope that i wont get "Net Poisonous"!

now...i can unlimited online for 24 hours...
now...i can play online games...
now...i can find info at home and not at college...
now...i can do whatever things that i cant do with the 56k...

now...i will stick with my com from day to night...
now...i will getting fat coz less exercise...
now...i will having a thicker glasses soon...
now...i will start to write my blog and welcome all to here!!!

他可以吗?

他,想说话,
想大大声地说话,
痛痛快快地说话。

但他能和谁说呢?
想说的,并不是你想听的。
能说的,你却不感兴趣。

他决定了,
把想说的话,完完整整的保留起来,
把它关在心里,不让它从嘴里溜出来,
让它慢慢地被消化,然后消失在这世界。

突然发现到,他真的很久没说话了,
那个有着说不完话的人,
不知去了那里。

他已把自己关在一个与世隔绝的空间里。
你看得见他,但就是听不到他开口多说几句话。
你发觉得到他的存在,但就是不想理睬他。

他,已习惯了这样的生活,
这种独来独往的生活。
他,不再需要看人们的脸色过活,
只活在自己的世界里。

他怎么了?
能够回到从前吗?
能够找回自我吗?
他可以吗?